474 What to do?
How many matters are there?
For us to write
As so many thoughts
Are coming within me
When I observe
What is happening around me?
It is forcing me
To write about it
But ‘what is the use’
This question also
Stands before me
Before I writing
Though I think that
It is better to live
By closing our
Eyes along with ears
The mind inside
Provoking thoughts
Refuse to take rest
Till I write about it
Because of this
When I write and
Share my thoughts
With others
As more arguments
Develop because of that
I don’t have the patience
To continue them
Because of this, the way
I struggle within me
What to say
About it
How to go
To a stage
Where I can live
Beyond thinking
I request to those
Who knows about it?
Only appealing for this
I close here
Mathigiri, 20-09-2018, 11.30
After writing about Modi (It is good for Modi—if he is defeated.) as I posted in the whatsapp immediately I received one phone call from one person whom I know but not in touch. I don’t know he is pro-Modi or anti-Modi. But as I was busy with other works, I ignored that call. The another reason for it is that I neither have time or interest to further engage with unnecessary argument with anyone on such points—particularly related with politics. Because in politics in India and also anywhere in the world, it seems that it is difficult for one to remain stick to one particular ideology. For example, as I never like dynastic politics (both in Tamilandu and all India level) I voted for BJP and AIADMK. But considering the present scenario, I am not sure I will do the same again. I am personally not against or in favor of any individual in politics. But even remain firm in particular ideology becomes difficult in a pluralistic society where one is forced to change her conviction and commitment to a particular ideology. Because, however good and noble that ideology could be (according to the understanding of that particular person), when it becomes a political power which could twist and turn that ideology for vested interest, then one has to rethink about her commitment to that ideology. For example I am a strong Nationalist. But my nationalism is inclusivistic and not against any community. However when the Right Wing Nationalists uses the brutal political power which they gain through the vote power, then the ideology becomes the first victim.
So when I again received another message by some pro-Modi person or group first I laughed at it as I never come across such foolish and childish support to Modi. I am not sure whether Modi himself will approve it. @ So when I was thinking about it before retiring to bed get irritated by such foolish and childish promotion of a person, I thought of writing another rebuttal to it. I am not a great fan of Modi at the same time I am not a Left wing or pseudo secularist to oppose his vision for India just for the sake of opposing him. Still I would prefer him to be the next P.M. of India, as we cannot judge his performance giving only one term in his office which required clearing up all the mess created by the previous Congress government. So I think that it is right time even to RESCUE Modi from BJP or some fanatics in it. Then I began to draft my thoughts in my mind and a compulsion came within me to write it immediately in the computer. But I resisted it as it is bed time and already I become very tired. But as I couldn’t sleep as my mind won’t allow me to rest until I write down my thoughts, I feel sorry for me. Then I thought how good it is to live closing my ears, eyes and mouth and minding my own business. I really long for a life where I can live going beyond thinking and reasoning within me. Then I wrote this song and went to bed.
Of course next day morning the first thing that I have done was recording my thoughts in another article: BJP become Congress or Modi needs to be rescued. See below.
@ When I forwarded that message to my niece she sends this response which reflects the mind of any soberly thinking Indian:
Hahaha if all happened only after BJP came to power…then oh so blind public has to face the consequences of not remembering the past! All mentioned above has been going on years, we just tend to forget for convenience and like to blame somebody and play the game of being a victim.
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எழுதிதான் வைக்க
ஏராள எண்ணங்கள்
என்னுள்ளே பெருகவே
சுற்றிலும் நடப்பதை
உறுமே பார்க்கையில்
அவைகளைப் பற்றியே
எழுதிடத் தோணுதே
ஆயினும் பயனென்ன
என்கின்ற கேள்வியும்
அதன்பின் என்முன்னே
தோன்றியே நிற்குதே
கண்ணுடன் காதையும்
வாயையையும் மூடியே
வாழ்வதே நல்லது
என்றுமே எண்ணினும்
உள்ளாக சிந்தையோ
எண்ணத்தைத் தூண்டிட
எழுதிடும் வரையிலும்
ஓய்ந்திட மறுக்குதே
இதனாலே நிம்மதி
இழந்ததால் நானுமே
எண்ணத்தை எழுதியே
பிறருடன் பகிர்ந்திட
அதன்பின் வந்திடும்
வாதத்தை எண்ணிட
அவற்றுக்குப் பதில்சொல்ல
பொறுமையோ இல்லையே
அதனாலே என்னோடு
நான்படும் பெரும்பாடு
அதைப்பற்றி எவ்விதம்
நானுமே சொல்லிட
சிந்தனை என்பதே
இல்லாமல் வாழ்ந்திடும்
மேலான நிலைக்கு
எவ்விதம் சென்றிட
அறிந்தவர் கூறியே
உதவிட வேண்டுறேன்
அதைமட்டும் கூறியே
இத்தோடு முடிக்கிறேன்
மத்திகிரி, 20-09-2018, இரவு11.30