516 I am my burden
My ego
Is my burden
How others can
Carry it
Realizing this
I carry me each day
There is no means
To unload it
When I began
To accumulate it
I never realized that
It will become a burden
When I realized it
While I was carrying
There is none
To unload it from me
In order to show that
‘I am not like you’
Then I become
Very arrogant
Realizing this
When the other person left
Standing alone
I began to compare (me with me)
Without anyone
To compare me
I get irritated
As began to compare me with me
Then along with ego
As the irritation also joined
Without any means
I began to carry me
Not having
Strength to carry (me)
Without any means
To unload it
When I began to
Rebuke me
There is none
Even to listen to it
Carrying me
All alone
Weeping standing
All alone
Without having
Any hands to wipe out the tears
There is no use
In lamenting
Once the ‘ego’
Goes away
The burden also
Will go automatically
As the burden of the
Heart leaves
Then I began to float (in the air)
Like the cotton (becoming light)
Mathigiri, 27-06-2019, 11.15 a.m.
Long before one of my shshyas (he is no more now), while sitting with me, suddenly got down from the sofa (in which we were sitting) and sat on the floor and said, ‘Swamiji I am really a humble person’. Then with a simile I said, ‘That others have to say. The moment if you realize that you are a humble person, that shows your arrogant nature. A really humble person won’t even realize that he is very humble. That others should realize and applaud.
We all have our ego. One time or other we naturally show it to someone particularly comparing us with him. Realizing our arrogance when the other person leaves us, then not having anyone to compare, we have to compare ourselves. That time we might get irritated even with us. Even Mahatma Gandhiji was no exception to this. He opposed Sub ash Chandra Bose to become the Congress President and worked hard to defeat him, which led the Bose to even leave Congress. Ego is behind every split beginning from the family, community, society, political party, in religion and even in the so called spiritual community. Even when some