1166 I keep quiet
You told me to
Remain quiet
You told me that
I lost much by talking too much
Therefore I listened
What you said
I remained quite
For few days
Then I began
To think about one thing
I came only to
Ask about it
If I talk with you
There is no response from you
If I talk with others
There is no use in it
I never listened
What I tell to me
Therefore I
Didn’t even talk with me
But my mind
Never listened me words
It never stopped
Its talk
Therefore I came
Again to talk to you
I only want to
Ask about it
Why you gave this
Mind to me unnecessarily to me
Why you kept me
As an object of display (thamasha)
Then you began
To blame me only
You never told me
The means to get rid of it
As your silence
Came as the answer
Again I
Keep quiet
Mathigiri, 21-1-2020, 11.00 p.m.
One of my favourite of sadhana is to remain silent not talking with others not fore few hours but even for several days. When I stayed in one ashram for several months they gave a remote cottage for me to stay. There I stayed not talking with anyone for few days in a week. The watchman will come in the evening to see that I am (still) alive. Knowing my nature he won’t ask anything but will go silently. Once in a week when they go to nearby town to get provisions, several times I will send the list with the driver to get things for me than going with others. In those days, thank god there was no mobile or internet. Even we won’t get news paper everyday in the ashram. I spent my time in reading books and sitting silently immersed in the nature around me. During that time I was not even doing any art work like cross stitch work. Those were really the best time in my life. As I recalled that experience again I want to do that sadhana. But my mind is the culprit for me. Even if I try to keep quiet it never allows me to do that. As I was thinking about it I wrote this song. But when I asked about it, god gave me the right answer by remaining silent for me to do the same.
One of my favourite of sadhana is to remain silent not talking with others not fore few hours but even for several days. When I stayed in one ashram for several months they gave a remote cottage for me to stay. There I stayed not talking with anyone for few days in a week. The watchman will come in the evening to see that I am (still) alive. Knowing my nature he won’t ask anything but will go silently. Once in a week when they go to nearby town to get provisions, several times I will send the list with the driver to get things for me than going with others. In those days, thank god there was no mobile or internet. Even we won’t get news paper everyday in the ashram. I spent my time in reading books and sitting silently immersed in the nature around me. During that time I was not even doing any art work like cross stitch work. Those were really the best time in my life. As I recalled that experience again I want to do that sadhana. But my mind is the culprit for me. Even if I try to keep quiet it never allows me to do that. As I was thinking about it I wrote this song. But when I asked about it, god gave me the right answer by remaining silent for me to do the same.
1166 பேசாமல் இருக்கேன்
பேசாமல் இருந்திடு
என்றுமே சொன்னாய்
பேசியே இழந்தது
அதிகமே என்றாய்
ஆகவே நீசொன்ன
பேச்சையும் கேட்டேன்
கொஞ்சநாள் பேசாமல்
இருந்துமே பார்த்தேன்
அதன்பின் ஒன்றை
நானுமே எண்ணினேன்
அதைமட்டும் உன்னிடம்
கேட்டிட வந்தேன்
உன்னிடம் பேசினால்
பதிலேதும் இல்லை
ஊரோடு பேசினால்
பயனுமே இல்லை
என்பேச்சை நானே
கேட்பதும் இல்லை
ஆகவே என்னோடு
பேசவும் இல்லை
ஆயினும் என்மனம்
என்பேச்சை கேட்கலை
அதுபேசும் பேச்சோ
என்றுமே நிற்கலை
ஆகவே மீண்டும்
பேசிட வந்தேன்
அதுபற்றி உன்னிடம்
கேட்டிட விழைந்தேன்
உன்மவுனம் எனக்கு
பதிலாக வந்திட
மீண்டும் வாய்மூடி
பேசாமல் இருக்கேன்
வீணாக மனதை
ஏன்நீ தந்தாய்
வேடிக்கை பொருளாக
என்னையேன் வைத்தாய்
அதன்பின் என்மீது
குறைமட்டும் சொன்னாய்
அதைநீக்கும் வழி
சொல்லிட மறுத்தாய்
உன்மவுனம் எனக்கு
பதிலாக வந்திட
மீண்டும் வாய்மூடி
பேசாமல் இருக்கேன்
மத்திகிரி, 21-1-2020, இரவு, 11.00