325 Your Leelas (divine plays)
You try to say something
You tell something to me
Overcoming me by doing your deeds
You accomplish your will (in my life).
All the incidents are only an occasion
Even human beings too are your tools
Only to accomplish your will
All that you do are only your Leelas!
Even if I wish things won’t stop
When I like, things won’t be accomplished
Without your permission in my life too
Nothing will happen!
There is time to keep quiet
There is time to do many things with too much work
Yet without your permission
Neither I can keep quite or do work!
I understood this very clearly
And realized your act which you do according to your will
As there is nothing for me to do anything on my own
I too bowed at your feet.
26-8-15, Mathigiri, 11.30 pm.
Another song related with the Gadget. As my computer broke, I tried my best to seek others help. But as there was no response I felt stranded. Unable to relax or to move further when I began to meditate on this I realized that God is trying to tell something to me. As He is in control—response or no response from others, is too part of His divine Leela (play/plan). People, incidents, problems and solutions are part of His divine plan. Once I realize this then I can relax in Him. Then stopping my meditation I wrote this song as my prayer.
Of course there are several questions in pre-determined divine plan. Then the free will is questioned. This also comes very close to fatalism, which will work independently either with divine permission or interference or based on human will or not. But a bhakta of the Lord, by allowing the gospel to incarnate need to walk on a tight rope between any two extremes. My understanding is that I have to do my part and when things go beyond me on which I have no control or say, then instead of resigning to fatalism, I will relax thinking that God has different plan which I do not understand in that given moment. But trusting that nothing works beyond His permission will help me to abide in His (divine) peace rather than allowing anxiety to control me. This does not mean that I will keep quiet and won’t do anything further to resolve the crises. Once I learnt the secret that He allows things according to His plan, and then I will allow the peace of God which transcends all our understanding to guard my heart and mind. This will help me to think soberly and act without frustration. Then I will see the alternatives which God has kept which I failed to notice because of my anxiety and frustration. Anxiety will rob both our heart and mind allowing frustration to control us. But the peace of God will allow us to think soberly and to see other means which He has already provided. When any issue challenges, a common person will try to seek solutions based on emotion (heart) or planning (mind). Nothing wrong in it. But a bhakta by submitting everything with supplication with thanks giving too will use the same heart and mind, but now controlled by the divine peace than based on her strength or nature. The common approach of a person is that she will first think about all the resources at her disposal. When everything fails, then she might seek God’s help. But a bhakta too will do the same but first seek God’s help through prayer (and also thanks giving for the solution which God already arranged, even the answer of a BIG NO) and when things still don’t work, will accept the will of God quietly and wait upon His time and plan to resolve the crises. Then the peace of God which guards our heart and mind will help us to settle down and see the other alternatives which are provided by God.
This may looks too philosophical and idealistic. All our claims about what the Lord has done in our life looks idealism for others. But a bhakta who received the divine grace will see that other’s idealism is her sadhana, tapasya, in which she often fails, yet cannot dismiss as mere idealism.
325 உன்லீலைகளே
ஏதோ சொல்ல வருகின்றாய்
ஏதோ செய்தி சொல்கின்றாய்
என்னையும் மீறிச் செயலைச் செய்து
உன்சித்தம் நிறைவேற்றுகின்றாய்
நிகழ்ச்சிகள் அனைத்தும் நிமித்தங்களே
மனிதர்கள் கூட உன் கைக்கருவிகளே
உன்சித்தம் மட்டும் என்னில் நிறைவேற
நீசெய்யும் அனைத்தும் உன் லீலைகளே
வேண்டாம் என்றாலும் நின்றிடாது
வேண்டும் என்றாலும் நடந்திடாது
உன் அனுமதியின்றி என்வாழ்வில் கூட
ஒரு செயலும் நிச்சயம் நிகழ்ந்திடாது
அமைதியாய் இருக்கும் நேரமுண்டு
ஆர்ப்பரித்து அலைமோதும் காலமுண்டு
ஆயினும் உன் அனுமதியின்றி
ஆடவோ அடங்கவோ இயலாது
நான் இதை நன்கு புரிந்து கொண்டேன்
நடப்பிக்கும் உன்சித்தம் அறிந்து கொண்டேன்
நான்செய்யும் செயல் ஒன்றும் இல்லையென
நானும் உன்னடி பணிந்து கொண்டேன்
26-8-15, மத்திகிரி, இரவு 11.30