353 Will I sit leasurely?
Getting up in the early morning
And sitting quietly
Oh! Lord coming
Unto your feet
Not thinking any other thing
But only remembering you
Will I sit leisurely?
Even for few seconds
Keeping many things (in mind)
Keeping so many goals (to be achieved)
Struggling whole time
Not becoming unfruitful
I should think only you
I should talk only with you
When you come to tell something
I should be ready to listen to you.
Without having fellowship with you
Without having mind about your words
Without having the help of your Spirit
And without having the fellowship of other bhaktas
Not loosing myself in the noise of the world
Keeping me with you
You should protect me having mercy on me.
30-11-2015, Mathigiri, 6.00, am.
As I got up in the early morning, after having my tea, when I began to sit for my quiet time, so many thought as usual occupied my mind thinking about the works that needs to be done, book that are to be read, emails that are to be written or respond etc. Then I said, ‘when I am going to sit calmly thinking only about you and nothing else’? That time I wrote this song. Of course this is not the first time or going to be the last time or I am the only person having similar experience. However, in spite of doing so many things, I strongly feel that unless I learn the art of ‘keeping short account with God’, I will be easily carried away in the current of work holism.
Of course one can see the rhetoric of the same theme like this again and again in my songs. Similarly it is not practically possible to be with the Lord all the time to listen to Him. Though hyperbolic words are common future of any poem, the reality of keeping me very busy is a reality. When I remind myself with such thoughts, that helps me to keep focused on the Lord, always keeping short accounts with Him. The constant communion of my atman with the Lord needs to be developed by reminding myself often.
353 ஓய்வாக இருப்பேனோ?
அதிகாலை எழுந்திருந்து
அமைதியாய் அமர்ந்திருந்து
ஐயாஉன் திருவடியின்
அருகினில் அண்டிவந்து
ஒன்றையும் சிந்திக்காது
உன்னையே நினைத்திருந்து
ஒருசில நொடிகளேனும்
ஓய்வாக இருப்பேனோ?
பலப்பல எண்ணம்கொண்டு
பலவித நோக்கம்கொண்டு
பொழுதெல்லாம் போராடி
பயனற்றுப் போகாமல்
உன்னைமட்டும் நினைக்கவேண்டும்
உன்னுடன்பேச வேண்டும்
நீசொல்லவரும் போது
உடன்நான் கேட்கவேண்டும்
உன்னுடன் உறவின்றி
உன்வேத நினைவின்றி
உன்னாவி துணையின்றி
உன்தொண்டர் குழாமின்றி
உலகின் இரைச்சலிலே
என்னையே இழக்காமல்
உன்னுடன் என்னைவைத்து
இரங்கிநீ காக்கவேண்டும்
30-11-2015, காலை 6.00, மத்திகிரி