392. Trapped in fire
Is it possible to share?
And is it necessary to share
Even if it is written in words
Can others understand our thought?
What is the use of?
Communicating through words
What is your answer?
For the depressed heart?
I struggle like the ant
Which is caught in fire on both sides?
And you too
Watching this as a thamasha
For some reason you gave the body
And along with thoughts also
But why you kept this contradiction
In between them
The body is attacking
The mind on one side
And mind is resisting it
From the other side
And my life is suffering
Caught between them
And struggle each day
In between them
How can I say about my condition?
More than this
Do whatever you want
What else can I do?
10-3-16, Mathigiri, 2.00 pm.
As I received one response for one of my songs, in which the person poured the current condition in life, I was reflecting about it. This conflict between flesh and spirit is constant one—though all may have different kind and levels. But caught between rock and hard place, our atman often gets frustrated. When we expect some kind of response for our prayers from God, there is complete silence from His end. Then we feel as if we are trapped in between two burning fire in which an ant is caught—without having any escape. As I was thinking this I wrote this song, this being everybody’s experience and also a reality in life.
392. இருதலைக் கொள்ளி
சொல்லத்தான் முடியுமோ
சொல்லிட வேண்டுமோ
சொல்லிலே வடித்தாலும்
என்னெண்ணம் புரியுமோ?
சொல்லாலே மொழியாலே
கூறியும் பயனென்ன
சோர்வுண்ட மனதிற்கு
நீகூறும் பதிலென்ன?
இருதலைக் கொள்ளியிடை
எறும்பாகத் தவிக்கிறேன்
இதனைநீயும் கூடத்தான்
வேடிக்கை பார்க்கிறாய்
ஏனோ உடல்தந்தாய்
எண்ணமும் உடன்தந்தாய்
இரண்டுக்கும் இடையினில்
முரண்பாட்டை ஏன்வைத்தாய்?
உடலோ மனதை
ஒருபுறம் தாக்குது
மனமோ மறுபுறம்
அதனையும் எதிர்க்குது
இடையில் என்னுயிர்
அடிப்பட்டுத் தவிக்குது
இரண்டுக்கும் நடுவினில்
தினம்தினம் தவிக்குது
இதைவிட எப்படி
என்நிலை சொல்வது
என்னவோ செய்யினி
நானென்ன செய்வது?
10-3-16, மத்திகிரி, மதியம், 2.00