967 He will uphold like a mother
You are providing good things
By seeking after me
You come and give needed things
Knowing my needs
You rush to come
Even before I call
And you take much pity
Seeing my condition
Why this much compassion
I thought
‘Why you do this’?
I asked you
‘You never
Understood your condition
There is no point of
Talking about it with you’
By saying this
He continued his errands
And refuse to give
Further explanation
I remained like a
Sick child
I never understood
The condition of my sickness
Knowing what is
My requirement
He did everything
In proper time
Till I recover and
Completely healed
He carried me on his lap
And cared like a mother
As I experienced
That comfort
For others to
Receive it
I called you
To come to experience it
After becoming sick
To him
[Come to him
By becoming a sick person]
Unless realizing it
By personal experience
There is no
Other simple means for that
Set aside the
Greatness of your buddhi
Come to day
With a simple heart
Mathigiri, 16-9-2018, 11.30 p.m.
When I become tired and unable to sleep properly in the night, after giving morning coffee I will tell my mother that I am going to bed again and not to disturb me till 8.30 a.m. So, though she will go back to bed again (this she does every day—very blessed woman who can sleep after having her morning coffee. I won’t drink coffee if I have decided to go to bed.) But before going to bed as she used to keep the vessels back in the places which were washed by me, my mother will do it very gently so that she won’t make any noise. Similarly if she needs to go to use the bath room which we both share together (which is in between our rooms) she will open the door very gently and won’t run the water forcefully as she knows well that even with a slight sound or disturbance I will woke up. She won’t even take bath till I woke up so that I won’t be disturbed.
As it again happened this morning, I was recalling it, and then I realized that the Lord is doing the same with me. To enjoy the comfort of the Lord you should become sick or weak. Otherwise you cannot experience it. Mere intellectual relationship with the Lord that too based on Muktiveda alone is not enough in enjoying bhakti with the Lord. It should be expressed and experienced in human terms and relationship. If you never had it, become weak and enjoy it. I am fortunate to have my mother with me in my old age (however old she become) to take care of me with care like a baby. I am more fortunate to have my Lord to do the same to me like a mother.
967 தாய்போல் தாங்குவான்
நாடித்தான் தருகிறாய்
நன்மைகள் நாளுமே
தேடித்தான் தருகிறாய்
தேவைகள் அறிந்துமே
ஓடித்தான் வருகிறாய்
கூப்பிடும் முன்னமே
உருகித்தான் போகிறாய்
என்நிலைக் கண்டுமே
இத்தனை இரக்கம்
எதற்கென எண்ணினேன்
ஏனிதைச் செய்கிறாய்
என்றுமே கேட்டேன்
உன்நிலை நீயும்
உணரவே இல்லை
உனக்கதைச் சொல்லிப்
பயனுமே இல்லை
என்றவன் சொல்லி
ஏவலைத் தொடர்ந்தான்
எவ்வித விளக்கமும்
மேல்தற மறுத்தான்
நோயுற்ற சேயின்
நிலையில் இருந்தேன்
நோயின் தன்மையை
அறியா திருந்தேன்
எதுஎன் தேவை
என்பதை அறிந்து
ஏற்ற நேரத்தில்
எல்லாம் செய்தான்
தேறுதல் அடைந்து
சுகம்பெறும் வரையில்
தாய்போல் தாங்கி
மடிமேல் வளர்த்தான்
அந்த ஆறுதல்
அறிந்ததினாலே
அதனைப் பிறரும்
பெற்றிட வேண்டி
ஒருமுறையேனும்
நோயுற்று வந்து
உணர்ந்திட உங்களை
நானும் அழைத்தேன்
அனுபவம் மூலம்
அறிவது அன்றி
அதனைப் பெறுவது
எளிதே அல்ல
மதியின் மேன்மையை
சற்றே ஒதுக்கி
எளிய மனதுடன்
இன்றே வருவீர்
மத்திகிரி, 16-9-2018, இரவு 11.30