968 Should like this
My heart is melting within me thinking you
It bows at your feet to sing your praises
It longs to live everyday with you
It rejoice in your grace
If I forgot to remember you even for a single day
Along with my atman the heart only seeks you
Unless I rejoice having fellowship with you
Along with the body it becomes tired
When I sit at your feet
Thinking how this day went
Thinking about the grace which was with me
Both my eyes are shedding tears
Though it was the routine life
You helped me to live it with much blessing
Unlike others who live on this earth
You made me to see your grace in it
However you remain with me always
Until I come at your feet like this
I cannot find fullness in anything
And there is no satisfaction of living a complete life
Coming like this and sitting along with you
When I think about the fellowship in which
I share what all happened this day
My heart is longing to live like this
Mathigiri, 17-9-2018, 11.30 p.m.
As I have often said, most of the time at the end of the day I will just recall that day’s life. This often helps me to plan the next day and other works that need to be done. Only when I recall the work of the day, several times, I forgot that I forgot to complete some small kitchen work and will then go back to do it and come back to continue my meditation. If I don’t do it and continue with my meditation that work might remain incomplete and bring problems next day.
But for me this too is part of my life in the Lord which I need to enjoy each day. I strongly believe living one day at a time—though I won’t deny that I don’t have anxiety about tomorrow or completely forgot about the past. As I was sitting again to recall this day, I suddenly remembered what Tom Wright says about this in his commentary on Revelation: … ‘Heaven,’ God’s sphere of reality, is right here, close beside us, intersecting with our ordinary reality. It is not so much like a door opening high up in the sky, far away. It is more like a door opening right in front of us where before we could only see this room, this field, this street….—Revelation for Everyone, ISPCK, New Delhi, 2015, p. 42 (4.1-6a).
Then I wrote this song as my prayer for this day.
968 இதுபோல் வாழணும்
உனையெண்ணி உள்ளாக உருகுது மனது
உன்புகழ பாடி உன்னடி பணியுது
உன்னுடன் வாழ்ந்திட நாளுமே விழையுது
உன்னருள் தன்னிலே உவந்தே களிக்குது
ஒருநாளேனும் நினையாது போனால்
உயிரொடு மனதும் உன்னையே தேடுது
உன்னோடு உறவாடி மகிழாது போனால்
உடலும் கூட சோர்ந்தே போகுது
எவ்விதம் போனது இந்நாள் என்று
எண்ணியே உன்னடி அமர்ந்திடும் போது
என்னுடன் இருந்த உன்னருள் எண்ணி
என்னிரு கண்களும் நீரைச் சொறியுது
வழக்கமாய் வாழ்ந்த வாழ்வே ஆயினும்
வளமுடன் வாழ வழிவகை செய்தாய்
உலகில் வாழும் பிறர்போ லன்றி
உன்னருள் அதனுள் கண்டிடச் செய்தாய்
என்னதான் என்னுடன் நீயிருந்தாலும்
இதுபோல் உன்னடி வந்திடும் வரையும்
முழுமை எதிலும் காணவே இல்லை
முழுதாய் வாழ்ந்த நிறைவும் இல்லை
இதுபோல் வந்து உன்னுடன் அமர்ந்து
இந்நாள் நடந்ததை உன்னுடன் பகிரும்
இந்த உறவை எண்ணிடும் போது
என்னுளம் விழையும் இதுபோல் வாழ
மத்திகிரி, 17-9-2018, இரவு, 11.30