1202 An opportunity
Thinking that
This is another opportunity
Always seeking
Only your grace
I will come without fail
To worship you
There is no hope for you to escape
This I say clearly
The night came
Long before
Everyone
Went to bed
When I am troubled
Unable to sleep
To whom shall I seek?
Company without sleep
How do you know?
The importance of sleep
Better sleep for some time
Then you will realizes its importance
But that is not possible
For you
Being a God
That is impossible for you
One way
That is also good for me
When no one
Approaches you
I will come running
Seeking your fellowship
Even if I lost sleep
I will be benefited by it
Therefore this slave
Won’t lament that
I couldn’t
Sleep much
When I get
Similar opportunities
Definitely I won’t
Miss them
But you have to
Pay a heave price
For that
Oh my Lord
As I have to write
Poem about it
You have to listen to it
Without any means to escape
If you want to
Escape from my poem
There is an easy
Means for you
If you sing lullaby
I will go to sleep
If you delay further
Definitely I will write only a poem
Therefore the
Choice is left with you
Otherwise there will come
Another song
Remembering this
Better you start
To sing the lullaby
Mathigiri, 17(18)-05-2020, 1.30 am.
As I slept too much for the last three days and also took good rest today, as usual I couldn’t catch my sleep when I retired to bed around 11.30. As I have decided to give complete rest, I didn’t read anything—including my regular reading of Muktiveda. But without sleep I remain awake for long time. Then as I began to meditate upon the Lord, some inspiration came to write another song. But I said no to it. As again rain came I went to my mother’s room to close the windows and returned to my bed. Then I began to draft another article in my mind. Then my mind tempted me to get up and write that article before I forgot it. Then my body warned me not to listen to my mind and threatened that if I didn’t listen to it, then it will extend the lockdown this time for another week. ‘Nobody is dying to reading your babblings’. Keep quite warned my body. As I don’t want to become sick again I obeyed the order of my body. But as I couldn’t catch the sleep, then I become upset with the lord and began to argue with him. Then I get up and sit on my bed and said to him ‘Don’t take the risk. If you didn’t give me proper sleep I will use it as an opportunity to talk with you’. Before I complete the sentence the very first word of the song came as an inspiration. Then my mind urged me to get up and took the old cheque book leaves which I left on my table and pencil to write another song. (I use only scrap paper, advertisement that comes with News paper and refill pencil not to waste resources. When I closed two bank accounts recently I requested the bank manager to allow me to take the two cheque books to write at the back of the cheque not to waste paper and she allowed to me take it. Similarly I use only refill pencil and not ink pen to write poems and note some points). But I was inside the mosquito net. Then my body again warned me not to listen to the mind. But I assured my body that I will only write the first line not to forget it and tomorrow I will complete the poem. So I got up and took the cheque leaves and pencil and went inside the mosquito net again. Then putting the light I wrote the first line, but as the inspiration continued without any option I wrote the entire poem. Otherwise my mind won’t allow me to sleep further. Then my mind with a sarcastic smile told the body, ‘Don’t think that you are the boss for the body. I have the final authority in this. You may become physically tired but I never become tired I never need any rest.’ Seeing the fight between them I warned the Lord to give me sleep otherwise I will pester him by writing another song and told him it is left to his choice.
1202 வாய்ப்பு
இதுஒரு வாய்ப்பு
என்றுமே எண்ணி
எப்போதும் உனது
கிருபையை நன்னி
தப்பாமல் நானும்
சேவிக்க வருவேன்
தப்பிக்க வழியில்லை
உனக்குமே சொன்னேன்
இரவு வந்து
வெகு நேரமாச்சு
எல்லோரும் இப்போ
தூங்கவும் போயாச்சு
தூங்காமல் நானும்
தவித்திடும் போது
துணைத்தேடி இப்போ
யாரிடம் போவது
உறக்கத்தின் அருமை
உனக்கென்னத் தெரியும்
உறங்கிப்பார் அதிலுள்ள
நன்மையும் புரியும்
ஆனால் அதுதான்
உனக்குமே இயலாது
ஆண்டவன் ஆனதால்
உனக்கது இயலாது
அதுவும் ஒருவிதம்
எனக்குமே நல்லது
யாரும் நெருங்கா
நேரம் பார்த்து
உறவு கொள்ள
ஓடியே வருவேன்
உறக்கம் இழந்தாலும்
நன்மையைப் பெறுவேன்
ஆகவே உறக்கம்
வரவில்லை என்று
அடிமையும் இனிமேல்
புலம்பிட மாட்டேன்
இதுபோல் வாய்ப்பு
கிடைத்திடும் போது
நிச்சயம் அதனை
இழக்கவும் மாட்டேன்
ஆனால் அதற்கொரு
அதிக விலையையை
ஐயனே நீயும்
அவசியம் தரணும்
அதுபற்றி பாடல்
நானுமே எழுத
வேறு வழியின்றி
நீகேட்டுத் தீரணும்
ஆகவே இதிலே
தப்பிக்க விரும்பினால்
அதற்கான எளிய
வாய்ப்புமே உள்ளது
தாலாட்டு பாடினால்
தூங்கிடப் போவேன்
தாமதம் செய்தால்
பாட்டுத்தான் எழுதுவேன்
ஆகவே முடிவு
உன்னிடம் உள்ளது
இல்லாது போனால்
இன்னொரு பாட்டு
எழுத நேரிடும்
என்பதை உணர்ந்து
தாமதம் செய்யாமல்
நீயுமே ஆரம்பி
மத்திகிரி, 17(18)-05-2020, இரவு, 1.30