317 What else can I do?
Others are not responsible
For the condition of my mind.
I don’t have hatred on
Any one.
When I tell
What I think is correct
I don’t know the way
To communicate it!
If I say harshly
That it will break the heart (of others)
If I say very gently
They least bother about it!
I don’t have a mind set
To let it go (thinking) @
What else
Can I do?
@ I cannot disown my responsibility.
If I interfere
I cannot carry the burden
I don’t have the means
To escape!
How far I can carry
I have to bear it
When I cannot do it anymore
I have to leave it (let it go)!
Unable to carry the burden
And impossible to give up
Now I am trapped
In between the two (extremes)!
Let it go as it is
What else can I do?
What else can I do other than?
The One who allow this?
29-7-15, Mathigiri, 2.50 pm.
Sorry. Another song on generation gap. This time before sharing with you all, I shared with the person for whom I wrote this song. He requested me to remove his name alone and share. He even said, ‘you have written many poems scolding and rebuking me. I know I have to learn as you try to teach and correct me’. (See secular songs 113, 117, 118 & 122, But I don’t think there is no need to give all the background of this song.
We old people did worry and concerned when the young member of the family didn’t come back as they informed before. Even after making several phone calls when there was no response though the ring was going on, definitely it will create tension to the elderly people. And when the youths are mildly rebuked for such irresponsibility, instead of accepting their mistake and promising not to repeat, when they (the youths) began to argue and defend (their irresponsibility), then two options are left with the elders: not to worry about things on which they have no direct or indirect control. Or take some disciplinary action. And I have done the later and now it made that person to understand that he cannot take for granted several things which come to him without any pain or strain. And when he repeated the same for the second time, I said, ‘ok, hereafter I am not going to worry if you didn’t return back in time as you informed or bothered to call and give that you will come late. As an old man I have my limitation and I cannot carry others burden for long time’. He got the message. This is the background of this song. [My discipline helped him and his mother as they now reconciled and he began to take care of her and eat food with her].
Others may think that this has nothing to do with bhakti theology. But as a bhakta of the Lord as well as human being I struggle several time where to involve and where to withdraw. And as usual my final refuge is God alone.
317 வேறென்ன செய்ய?
பிறரல்ல பொறுப்பு
என்மன நிலைக்கு
வெறுப் பொன்றுமில்லை
எவர்மீதும் எனக்கு
தவறெனப் படுவதை
நான்சொல்லும் போது
புலப்படவில்லை அதைக்
கூறும்வழி எனக்கு
நறுக்கென்று கூறினால்
நொறுங்கிடும் மனது
நயமுடன் கூறினால்
அலட்சியம் பிறர்க்கு
எப்படிப் போனால்
இனியென்ன எனக்கு
எனக்கூறும் மனது
இல்லை எனக்கு
தலையிட்டுக் கொண்டாலே
தாங்காது பாரம்
தப்பிக்கும் வழியும்
எதுவும் கானும்
எதுவரை முடியுமோ
அதுவரை சுமக்கணும்
முடியாமல் போனால்
விலகிக் கொள்ளணும்
சுமக்கவும் முடியாது
ஒதுக்கவும் இயலாது
இடையில் தவித்திடும்
நிலையும் இப்போது
நடப்பது நடக்கட்டும்
நானென்ன செய்ய
நடத்துர அவனன்றி
வேறென்ன செய்ய?
29-7-15, மத்திகிரி, மதியம் 2.50