385 I won’t afraid
Somehow you redeemed me
And gave a life to me
Thinking only about it
I will rejoice (in you)
You didn’t redeem me asking me before
You never considered my mean status (as a sinner)
Only because of your grace
You lord over me.
I only allowed you to do that
And tried my best to understand it
How much I obeyed
That far I understood
You kept patience
You tolerated many of my mistakes
You showed me the way
To live in you by giving myself
Though the goal is too far away
And many struggles are on the way
As you remained my goal to reach
I won’t be afraid of anything
As you accompany me who redeemed me
And walking before me to take to that goal
What else I required any more
As you are there to show the path
Keeping you in front of me
And keeping you within me
And having only that strength
I live each day.
8-2-16, Mathigiri, 6.15 am.
As I was constantly thinking about that bhakta who was lying down on the bed with serious aliment and facing death hugging his two children (see song 383) I couldn’t sleep properly last night. I cried several times and crying while typing this also. As I was thinking about him, the words of another person with similar ailment about doing tapasya in the hospital room, treating it as the cave for them to do it, this morning I continue to think about the reality of suffering. As Muktived also endorses the REALITY of physical suffering, we cannot explain it psychologically or even spiritually when someone undergoes that painful movement that too each second in the life. We too had similar experience when we experienced that physical suffering. But once it is gone, though we can recall that experience, yet it rarely disturbs our mind at present. But for those who constantly facing it along with seeing the suffering of the near and dear ones is beyond human comprehension. And as I was constantly thinking about that bhakta and his wife and children I wrote this song meditating upon the words of as doing tapasya
385 அஞ்சமாட்டேன்
என்னவோ மீட்டெடுத்தாய்
எனக்குமோர் வாழ்வளித்தாய்
அந்த ஒன்றைமட்டும் எண்ணி
ஆனந்தம் கொண்டிடு வேன்
என்னைக் கேட்டு மீட்கவில்லை
என்நீசம் பார்க்க வில்லை
உன் கருணை ஒன்றினாலே
என்னை நீ ஆட்கொண்டாய்
அதற்கு நானும் உடன்பட்டேன்
அறிந்து கொள்ளச் செயல்பட்டேன்
எந்தவரை இணங்கினேனோ
அந்தவரை அறிந்து கொண்டேன்
பொறுமை நீயும் காத்துநின்றாய்
பிழைபல பொறுத்துக் கொண்டாய்
என்னைத் தந்து உன்னில்வாழ
ஏற்ற வழிகாட்டி வந்தாய்
போகும் தூரம் மிகவிருந்தும்
போராட்டம் பல இருந்தும்
இலக்கு நீயாய் இருப்பதாலே
எதனைக் கண்டும் அஞ்சமாட்டேன்
மீட்ட நீயே உடனிருந்து
சேர்க்க வேண்டி முன்நடந்து
ஏற்ற வழி காட்டும்போது
என்ன வேண்டும் இனியெனக்கு?
உன்னை முன்னி றுத்தி
உன்னில் எனை நிறுத்தி
அந்த ஒருபெலத்தி னாலே
அன்றாடம் வாழ்கின்றேன்
8-2-16, மத்திகிரி, காலை 6.15